Just over a week ago I returned to the land of the long white cloud, and reentered my bedroom that I hadn’t seen for over 2 months. It was odd being back at home, back in New Zealand. Everything felt foreign to me, and also, less exciting. For the past 2 months I had been jumping on planes and trains to different countries, waking up early to explore European cities, climb towers, ride rollercoasters, meet new friends and explore! But now, I simply reside in Hamilton – arguably the most boring place in New Zealand.
Before setting of traveling, I worked in a cake shop, I made videos on YouTube, I had a love interest, I had 2 months of travel to look forward to, I had so much expectation and excitement for my pending trip. Basically, my life was quite full.
But now I’m back from traveling I lack a job, love interest and excitement. There’s no big, exciting thing in my future to look forward to. My life is feeling very empty. I’ve been on a huge adventure, which has tested me to my utmost, and has been both horrible to endure and a joy to experience. My 2 month adventure ended with 2 weeks in Orlando, Florida with 18 of my family members at Disney World. It was the magical, joyous ending I needed to my emotional-rollercoaster of a trip.
But now I’m back at home, I have to regain a format to my life. I literally have total freedom at this point in time. I could do anything – and that’s daunting. I used to know exactly what I wanted to do, all up until I set off for my trip – That’s when I started free-falling. I had hoped to find an idea, a passion or a person to hold on to, to create a direction for my future. But alas, it did not happen.
I’m now just trying to find out what I want to do with my life, where I want to be, who I want to keep in my life and find a purpose for myself. But that’s easier said than done.
But I have an optimistic outlook that things will just fall into place. Someone will come along to take my life in a whole new direction, an opportunity will arise that will take me to new places, something fairytale-like, but we shall see.